Mixed emotions by a ginger musician.

So what’s happening with me? I’m absolutely freaking out! :O My Grade 7 Saxophone exam is either three weeks yesterday or three weeks today. Three bloody weeks! I am bloody screwed that’s what I am.

Well the EHCB concert was a bundle of laughs. It was in this nice hall in the middle of nowhere and of course, only family members came to see us. Oh well, that’s not strictly true, Norman Bolton appeared which was bizarre. When I got to the hall, I found out that we were going to play our saxophone quartet where the last time we played it, it was shit. So I was panicking that it was going to be a disaster. We shared the concert with the Inverness Wind Band, and they were at least 10 times better than we were. Plus one of my great friends from the Inverness band who I also met at the music groups, I hadn’t seen since March time, but I must have only seen him for 5 minutes tops so it was really annoying. The hall was small and the balcony thing where we all placed our instruments was crazy. There were about 100 of us to put all of our equipment in a space the size of a janitor’s cupboard. Plus when we went to watch the Inverness band, we had to stand on benches to actually see the group and my feet really hurt. So when it was our turn, we played our first piece which we usually play really well, a March, but our intro was a complete car crash. And then of course, our quartet were next in the programme. Let’s just say the tutor came in too early at one point, our different sections in the piece sounded the same and don’t get me started with my solo, it was iffy. Then came the flute players with their piece, it was just the two of them playing which I thought was really brave, it sounded great until one of them had her 2nd page of music upside down, which left her in stitches. It was really funny, poor girl though, must’ve been embarrassing! :O The brasses piece sounded great and then we played Caprice which has to be the most annoying part of music I have ever seen. I have the same phrase of staccato notes for 3/4’s of the whole thing, so bloody annoying. Then it was Viva la Vida with the Inverness band, which I now hate as I’ve heard it so many times, it’s ridiculous and the music from Chicago which we played at twice the speed we rehearsed, so it was almost another car crash. But overall, I really like these concerts, the more experience you get, the more you see the development in your performance, so maybe one day will come where I’ll be performing somewhere incredible, like Wembley! haha, keep dreaming, Eilidh. Anyway, I’m in a grumpy mood, it’s 11pm, and I’m going to try and see if I can get up tomorrow at a decent time. To practise saxophone for 3 hours. 3 HOURS!!!! Which I seriously need if I have any chance of passing this exam in 3 weeks. 3 WEEKS!!!! I think you can see a pattern developing…… :P

This is seriously going to get personal, you ready? Oh god, here we go. I must be seriously bored!

 If you were caught cheating, would you fess up? Of course.

Are you craving something? Chocolate….

If you could have one thing right now what would it be? A Red Special…. haha fat chance!

Would you rather have ten kids, or none? Dunno, probably ten.

What do you hear right now? The builders banging and hammering the new house close to us.

Is your bed against more than one of your walls? Well as it’s a loft bed, it’s nearly on another wall so i can climb up the ladder.

What’s on your mind right now? Chocolate. haha. I have no will power.

Are you there for your friends? I always say to them, that I’ll be there. So I hope I am.

 Last person to see you cry? Can’t remember. Been quite a while since I’ve had a good sob.

What do you do when you get nervous? Used to bite my nails, but I haven’t bitten them in a month! BOOYAH! :P

Be honest, do you like people in general? Sure. 

How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids? Dunno, I’ll be surprised if someone wants to spend the rest of their life with me first.

Does anyone completely understand you? Connie is probably the only person that has really understood me. She’s been my friend from the start and we still are even though we live a distance away from each other.

Do you have a reason to smile right now? Dunno, unless saxophone practise gets you wild! haha.

Has anyone told you they don’t ever wanna lose you? The guys from EHCB, like Genna but I know they will do just fine without me.

Would you be happier if life had a rewind button? Oh god yes.

Do you tell your mum or dad everything? I hardly tell them anything

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes? Of course. My nanna died of lung cancer, and smoked for a while, even though she gave up herself and was smoke free for about 10 years, it must have affected her still. It’s just not worth it. 

Are you going to get hurt anytime soon by someone? Seriously hope not.

This time last year, can you remember who you liked? Nope. Probably because he turned out to be a dick.

Do you think more about the past, present, or future? All of them, mostly the future as I’ll soon be leaving home! Scary.

How many hours of sleep do you get a night?For school it was 8 hours, now I’m on study leave, it’s been 11. haha. :S

Are you easy to get along with? Some say I have, some say I’m too weird. Fuck them.

Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with? If I hated someone I wouldn’t have a conversation with her. They’re lovely girls from EHCB, such good banter.

What was the last drink that you put in your mouth? Tea last night. After this, I’m making tea.

What size bed do you have? Double! Oh how I’m going to miss my double. :(

Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in? Start the water as it’s always cold at first when you turn it on

Do you like the rain? Sometimes. But in Scotland it always rains.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? Probably not, if they are, that’s nice of them.

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do? Go on a rollercoaster. Thought I would never do it, never been so scared in my life.

 Would people refer to you as a goodie goodie, bad news, or neither? Goodie goodie probably. When I’m not.

Who were you last in the car with, besides family? Can’t remember

What’s the last movie you saw in theaters and with who? Mr. Popper’s Penguins with Struan I think. I don’t really go to the cinema much as the local one is 40 miles away.

Have you ever kissed someone who had a boyfriend/ girlfriend? haven’t kissed anyone. that’s how sad I am.

Have you ever been hurt by someone you never thought would hurt you? Oh god yes.

Your parents are out of town. Would you throw a massive party? Probably not. I would sit and watch TV with a Ben and Jerry ice cream cause I’m wild. :P

Do you regret a past relationship? Haven’t even had a relationship so I wouldn’t know.

Would you rather spend a Friday night at a concert or a crazy party? Concert, parties just go completely overboard these days.

Do you tend to fall for the same type of person over and over?People who would never go out with me in a million years? Yep, all the time. :(

Have you made a joke about somebody that made them cry? Hope not.

Do you care too much about your appearance? I don’t give a toss really.

Are you a jealous person? I can be.

Have you bought any clothing items in the last week? Nope I haven’t. Local shop is once again 40 miles away. :P

Do you miss anyone? A lot of people.

Does your ex piss you off? Don’t have an ex.

What are you doing tomorrow? Shit all probably.

Are you the type of person who has a new boyfriend/ girlfriend every week? I’m the type of person who never has a boyfriend at any time. :P

Is there anyone you want to come see you? Connie.

Have you ever been cheated on? Well seeing as this quiz wants to make me feel the bottom of the deep pits as it keeps reminding me that I’ve never had a boyfriend, then no.

Ever given your all to someone who walked away? Dunno.

Do you like cotton candy? Had it once, can’t remember what it tastes like.

Who was the last person you had a serious conversation with? I never have serious conversations.

Are you planning to get knocked up or knock someone up by age 17? I’m 18. You’re a bit behind the curve there.

Do you have siblings? My younger brother

Have you ever fallen asleep on someone? Don’t think so.

How has the past week been for you? Quite good now SQA exams are done.

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? A couple. Of friends that is, not that they’re a couple together.

What’s on your mind right now? Chocolate and tea…..

What were you doing at midnight last night? Talking to Struan whilst listening to Kelly Clarkson on Spotify

What is your current mood? Not awake yet.

Who was the first person you talked to today? There’s no-one in the house.

Will this week be a good one? Fingers crossed

Anything happen to you within the past month that made you really happy? Not really happy.

Who were you with last night? Was in my room last night.

Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? Can’t remember. 

Next time you will kiss someone? Probably never.

Who should start the kiss, the girl or the boy? Dunno, it’s one of those things that should happen because they like each other, so they should both work at it.

What you doing this weekend? ummm….. probably see my brother parade in the local pipe band again. apart from that I have no idea.

Well now I’m depressed. Where’s the chocolate and tea on the double? :(

Basics:

Name: Eilidh Fraser
Age: 18
School: Technically I’ve left school, but still enrolled in DA.
Nationality: Scottish
Hobbies: playing saxophone, piano, tv, food. haha

Love Life:

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: neither. :(
Do you like someone?: no-one at the moment, unless you count fangirling over Queen! hehe.
Does anyone like you?: not that I know off, and to be honest i’m not surprised. :P
Have you ever kissed anyone?: nop. :’(
Hugged anyone in the past week?: yep, mainly me amigos from EHCB

Friendships:

Who is your best friend?: Connie, can always rely on her for anything
Where did you meet them?: nursery
Did you lose any friends this year?: Dunno, hope not!
Gain any?: A lot. :D
Meet a special friend?: Over the past two years, a lot of special people.
Did you hang out with any friends in the past week?: sure have, during band rehearsal

New Years Eve:
Did you do anything at midnight?: Was at the street party with friends.
Who did you spend it with?: Good friends, Catriona, Lucie and Ailsa. and my dad and younger brother
Did you have any resolutions?: to make 2012 better than 2011. :D

Valentines Day:
Did you have a Valentine?: No.
Did you send out any cards/chocolates/etc?: No.
Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend on this day?: DON’T LIKE THIS QUESTION!!! :O

Summer:
Did you go on vacation?: If you count NYJOS as being a ‘vacation’
Did you hang out on the beach with friends?: Maybe was with Connie at the beach one day…. can’t remember.
How long was your summer break?: 6 weeks
Did you get a tan?: Nope. The joys of being ginger. :(
Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend during the summer?: Of course not.

Halloween:
Did you go trick or treating?: Hell yeah! haha. no, didn’t even go to the hallowe’en disco i was meant to help ‘organise’ at school
If so, who did you go with?:The Hunchback Of Notre Dame. Sorry i like being sarcastic
Did you dress up?: I’m half zombie anyway so i didn’t have to improvise.
Was it fun?: Had a whale of a time. :P

Christmas:
Who did you spend it with?: Mum, dad, brother and grandad.
Did Santa come to your house?: Sure did. :D
Did you stay up until midnight on Christmas Eve? Probably, the bed there is the most uncomfortable thing in the world! :O

Your Birthday:
Who did you spend it with?: The guys from HSWB, HYBB etc.
What did you do?: Went to Inverness for a rehearsal that lasted an hour, spent the rest of the day doing nothing, had an amazing break where we sat out and ate the birthday cake Bethan made me and people signed my 18 block thing.
What did you get?: This new laptop from the rents, the 40 years of Queen book from the brother, the Live at Wembley DVD/CD set from Connie, just lots of lovely stuff.
When is it?: 24th March. Best day ever!

Have You Ever: (Yes or No):
Kissed someone: Nope. :(
Hugged someone: Yes of course.
Climbed more than 60 feet: How high is 60 feet?
Made a Youtube video: Quite a few now, even ones with my face in them! :O
Lied to a loved one: Yep.
Had a nosebleed: Oh god yes. The worst one was the day after we got back from EHCB Germany trip, had one that lasted for 15 minutes! ewwww.
Gotten airsick: Probably
Been so bored, you just ate food: Everyday in my goddamn life.
Not brushed your teeth for a day: Oh damn I forgot…. -running off to find toothbrush-
Not showered for a day: Yep.
Drank alchohol: Smirnoff Ice is the way to go! haha. Never got properly drunk though.
Smoked: No, and I never will!
Tried drugs: Yet again, I never will!
Had a pet: A few guinea pigs and once had a lot of fish.
Ran a marathon: I would, but I can’t run to save my life.
Had a boyfriend/girlfriend: Didn’t you already ask this question? No I bloody don’t.

5 Do’s
1. Do you play any instruments?: Saxophone, piano, 3 chords on guitar and ukelele, one note on the flute and maybe the spoons as well
2. Do you play any sports?: Used to play golf and go swimming but I’ve stopped it now, and seriously need to go back. :O
3. Do you believe in 2012?: It’s a whole lot of codswallop. We’re still alive right now aren’t we?
4. Do you like cheese?: Not really, I used to loathe it but now I don’t really mind it. :)
5. Do you honestly like Obama?: Sure. :D

I watched a video by punkchyaz, she’s a stunner, if you like beauty related videos (I somehow appear to like them which is bizarre….) check her out, she’s beautiful in everyway. Anyway, she was showing the stuff she bought in the summer, so it was an oldish video and she shopped at Peacocks. They have now closed most of their shops in the UK which is so sad as it was one of my favourite shops, especially for bags. Now pastel colours are popping out here, there and everywhere and it’s not my cup of tea at all, I like blacks, purples, blues etc. I’m a dark person. Mwahhaahhha!

So my exams are over, well the SQA exams and I feel as if a whole lot of weight has left my shoulders. We’ve also had some glorious weather these past couple of days in Scotland so I’m going to just chill out with this laptop on both my Tumblr blogs as I haven’t been on both since April. But to start the day with me becoming more and more stressed, the school decided not to tell me that the French exam had switched venues. I was meant to sit it in a church hall thing, but they moved it to the french classroom instead and didn’t bother to let us know. So I had to embarrassingly run across town, as it’s a 15 minute walk to the school building and I had 20 minutes, and of course you have to be there early so they can take register and what have you. Luckily, my mum passed me in her car and took me to the school the rest of the way there, so I eventually made it in time. Just shows how shit my school is for organisation. Right, so it’s 1:05pm so I’m going to make some lunch. Probably will be the packet pasta I’ve had everyday since study leave started. Anyway, if you still have exams, I wish you all the best. :D